Dead Girl On Earth - Kyra Bernice

Are you wondering where the real talent is - or if there’s any at all these days? Do you find it sad when true talent like rocket to stardom only after they die? Well here is...“Dead Girl On Earth”.

At the beginning of 2002, Kyra wrote “Early Song,” a ‘love lost’ song with a delicate Country feel. It would mark the beginning of her very first original album. After much discussion about whether or not to bring in additional hands to assist and speed up the recording, Kyra took the categorical decision to singly take on the task at her home-based studio in Bristol, with only her Partner/Sound Engineer Mark Radford stepping in when she often inevitably run out of hands! It took just under a year for Kyra to write, record and mix 15 tracks of which 12 are featured on the album.

Not wanting to rush into things, Kyra took some time out to think about the intention behind the album. Inaugural albums are often fairly personal for a writer, so Kyra distinguished that this should be her approach given that she, after all, was doing it alone and already had a huge amount of material directed at themes closer to home. Kyra began writing the songs and playing them acoustically at selected ‘open mic’ evenings to test the reception and also gain some sort of insight into how they would finally be constructed.

Kyra’s style of writing is sometimes described as fairly cryptic however; all 12 tracks are extremely adaptable and will present many different perspectives for the listener. “Freda” was the second written: an acoustic song about holding onto memories. Kyra considered naming it “Dear Freda,” as this is what you find at the beginning of every entry in her personal diaries. “Morn’ To Night” came next with its Reggae/Egyptian sound and is about doing what you can to avoid the perils of dreams. “So True And Quite New,” is an alternative rock sound relating to the annoyance of naiveté and the constant awareness of a better, more realistic place. “Fairy For Mary” is very melodic and dedicated to Kyra’s Grandmother. She incorporated her Grandmother’s favorite songs into the lyrics. “Blame The Flame” followed: a contemporary sound focusing on decaying relationships with people you care deeply for. “Just Cos’” is a somewhat jovial song which in itself metaphorically underlines the deception of making things look fine when they are not. “How Cold Love Is,” is a love song with a Country feel however, “Silent Speaking” followed with its haunting underground sound and addresses the common concept of life being a dream, but with a twist. Finally, “Eyes Of Age,” played acoustically. This is a truly heart felt and personal song about Kyra’s perception of life from childhood to adulthood.

“If Only,” with its Northern American touch was written by Kyra however, previously co-recorded/produced by Darren Simms and Phil Hennessey (“Common People”) along with “Dead Girl On Earth,” a song close to Kyra’s heart as it was written at just age 12. It was re-recorded to keep it more in key with Kyra’s style, given that it would feature as the title track of the album; and how you adapt that song, is entirely up to you!

The distinguished debut album by “Kyra Bernice” that many will no doubt be eager to get their hands on!

There are lots of promotional gigs being lined up for ‘Dead Girl On Earth’ so keep checking the ‘News’ section for regular updates!

He said, I’ll walk away
If I start to love you
You’ve told no lies - no never think
That I thought I’d have you
But don’t be mad when I say I’ll have
To find a girl just like you

I said, it saddens me
That I’m sat here smiling now
How I wish this day
Was a million tears ago
But I know I’ll bend it’s just I don’t know when
I’ll say the words to him there and then

So now I write this early song
Cos’ it feels like you’re already gone
You didn’t give me chance to say I’d try
Oh it’s just an early song
And hey, I guess I could be wrong
Guess everything you said could not be lies
Early song

He said, I don’t wanna be the cause of any sorrow
And it won’t be fair if I ain’t got what you need
But it would be lies if I looked in those eyes
And told you that I don’t want you

I said, baby not the cause
Maybe the symptom
And what I need is already in my heart
But I know I’m strong and hey, I will go on
And never return to where I came from

Chorus
Early song please be wrong

Is hiding your disguise
For not having to look in my eyes
You’re frightened that I might be on my way
It must be hard enough
When a man has to wait for his love
And then it turns out she has gone away

Chorus
My early song – my early song
Please be wrong-my early song

You gotta be the best friend that I have
Cos’ there you are when I don’t feel so bad
I think of you when the world seems out my hands
And play the songs from all our favorite bands

Freda
Are you happy?
Are you well?
Cos’ I can’t tell

It’s been a while since I wrote you the words
But I make sure I always put you first
A day won’t pass when I don’t see your face
Think of those stories in our secret place

Freda
Are you smiling?
I know your there
But I can’t see where

The day will come I will be with you there
We’ll laugh and cry about all those times we shared
But within every story there is a twist
It’s true that in this world you don’t exist

But Freda
Are you listening?
Hear her hum
To my song
Freda
Are you dancing?
You look like me
And you won’t leave me

As long as I can remember
You’ve always been there
I guess some things you just get used to
We’ll take care of each other
Forever

I feel like writing a song
So I thought I’d start with this
These days are feeling too long
And nothing’s left here on my list

I’m whizzing through the afternoon
Getting through the night
Can’t close my eyes without a fight
Whizzing through the afternoon
Getting through the night
Say’n farewell to morning light

Tell me why I waste my time
Suffering these dreams of mine
The end is always nigh
With the devil’s lullaby

I’m sleeping though the afternoon
Leaving out the night
Then I don’t have to taste the bitter bite
Sleeping through the afternoon
Leaving out the night
I wait to greet the morning light

I feel like writing a song I knew it would end up like this
I’m just too far and beyond - the ropes are burning around my wrist

I’m whizzing through the afternoon
Getting through the night
Can’t close my eyes without a fight
Whizzing through the afternoon
Getting through the night
Say’n farewell to morning light

I feel like writing a song
So I thought I’d start with this
These days are feeling too long
And nothing’s left here on my list
I’m whizzing through the afternoon getting through the night
Can’t close my eyes without a fight
Sleeping through the afternoon leaving out the night
I wait to greet the morning light
No one can save me – no one – mmnn no one

You think that I’m just a girl with dreams of make believe
But you never see mmn what I see
When my heart starts to breath
When I cry
I leave the world outside
And if I try to reach to you
You won’t believe my mind

If only I was them
Instead of me
I would believe what they told me
If only you were me and not you
You’d understand if only
Mmn you would understand if only

I’ll fix my job - plan the house
And pick out babies names
And live my life knowing that
The chance for me once came
I wanna fly into the world outside
But if I try to reach to you
You won’t believe my mind

If only I was them instead of me
I would believe what they told me
If only you were me and not you
You’d understand if only
Mmn you would understand if only

If only

Chorus

In your eyes I see the world outside
I realize that all these years
Believing all your lies
In your eyes
I see the world outside
In your eyes
If only

Words by K.Bernice
Copyright 2001

Fairy for Mary
Tip-toed across the room
She whispered soft and slow
That it was time to go
Leave your flowers now to grow

Take my hand it’s just for you
It’s been there your whole life through
I know you see come dance with me
Your party waits just for you

Chorus

They’ll understand when you leave this land
Really your work has just begun
For you will guide
No one can hide
When you’re looking from the sun

Chorus

(Angels sing) Ahhhhhh

I think it’s time it will be fine
Your work here is done
Come with me dear Mary
I will lead you to God’s home

Chorus

No fear or pain will come again
No one or nothing here is lost
For Danny boy will make the Wind blow
Beneath the Rugged Cross

Chorus

Goodnight Gran

I’m thinking words maybe a verse
Is all I’ve got for this
Been listening to songs about all the girls and boys in love
And I wondered why it felt so bad

Cos’ she will say that she can’t breathe
When her love leaves the room
He says for only her his heart is bleeding
But I don’t have a reason for love song
Oh no and I don’t even know the reasons why

I thought you were where I belong
All this time could I be so wrong
I give you it all but I’m still waiting
You won’t even tell me why you’re hesitating
I know you love me
But how cold love can be

Sitting here with all my tears
Two lovers on the screen
He holds her close and tells her “you complete me”
And I wondered why it felt so bad

You always say the movies ain’t
The way love’s got to be
How can a heart so loved be so frozen
Why don’t you give me a reason for a love song – oh baby now
Help my heart remember how to fly

Chorus

I never thought that I would have to ask to be loved
The choice is yours honey
Take it or leave it honey
I can’t go on
Forever

Chorus

I know you love me
But how cold love can be
I know you love me
Mmnnn

I suggest you just look
If you touch me you will know
Wouldn’t want to push you away
Not sure how far you’d fly

Try to see those words to me
Spin from your bitter heart
And you know it wasn’t me that made you cry

I should have stood back from the flame
Cos’ there’s no one Left for you to blame
Hey Hey Hey

Feels like I’m tryin’ to love you
Nothing more that I can do
You just can’t seem to see the truth
Your one true friend I’m all you have now
But you don’t see
Don’t think you know how
Or have you simply forgotten?
That you’re heading right for the bottom

Won’t believe what my eyes see when your saying what you say
And I can’t believe you’re doing what you do
It’s almost too late to make the change
Torturing with every word bruising day by day
Though I swear to God I’ll never let it show

I should have stood back from the flame
But there’s no one Left for you to blame
Hey Hey Hey
Chorus

I won’t watch you
Won’t let you
Won’t watch you waste away
(Should stand back from the flame)
(There’s no-one else for you to blame)

I loved you before I met you
“Impossible!” is what I say
But God how wrong am I
It seems so clear as I sit here
And this feeling’s killing me
Burning me out yet strapping me in

It’s been too long to just walk away
“Is that so?” is what I say
Funny how it just turns out that way
Your head clears up
It’s leaving the one thing that’s killing you
I know it’s wrong to just be gone
But that’s what happens when you’re strong and I

Cannot do this just cos’
Everyone thinks we’re happy
That went a long time ago ya know and I
Can’t change and you won’t change but the worry kind of left me
Mmnn a long time ago ya know?
And I can’t do this - can’t do this
Just cos’

Mmnnn?

History repeats itself
“Is that so?” is what I say
Strange it always takes this to happen
I wanna grab the love that seems to
Keep on missing me
Leaving me out yet pulling me in

So he got what you need
“That ain’t the point!” is what I say
Just to know and feel that it’s real
Is all I need to wake me up to this
Hurt that’s killing me
I’ll chew it up and spit it out
Cos’ that’s what strong is all about and I
Chorus

Didn’t no-body tell ya
You’d lose her love if you forced her?
Can’t say nobody warned ya that one day
She won’t be crying on your shoulder
Chorus

“She thought it was about time she said what she was thinking”

I haven’t come that far at all
But it feels like a million miles
I just had to get away
I just had to feel detached
I need stay strong and now more than ever
Cos’ there’s no one to turn to
Not one to tell my tale

My hands shake but deep inside I’m still
Stop the tears girl you know they can kill

I could have ended up anywhere
But I ended up right here
In my car looking out so far
At all the lights seen many times before
But I’m looking much farther
To something quite new
There’s somewhere so true
Just something quite new
And something so true
So true and quite new

“Sometimes the world can be so fucking cruel”

There comes the smile again
What a shame I can’t pass it round
But they just wanna think of the bad things
Yeah they just wanna crush me down
(Crucify me)
So it seems they want it all
Looks like they forgot my happiness
Well go ahead and rape my goodness
Go ahead – hell - test my strength
(You’ll think again)

My hands shake but deep inside I’m still
Why don’t you stop the tears girl you know they can kill?

Chorus

“And so she sat there – and she reached out – and she touched it”

I can feel you

I don’t think that I woke up
I’m sure I’m still lying there
This dream ain’t giving in
Until it’s taken everything
My mind tries to steal me back
It feels like a heart attack
But still I remain here
Swimming through all my tears

Ahhhhh

Who sits beside me?
Whisper softly while I sleep
I can hear you breathing
I think I sense your grieving
Please won’t you shake me?
Pull me back where I belong
Cos’ there trying to break me
And they’ll have nothing when I’m gone

Ahhhhh

I can sense your grieving
I can feel you breathing
I can sense your grieving
I can feel you breathing

Ahhhhh

I can sense your grieving
I can feel you breathing
I can sense you grieving
I can feel your breath

Down a dose
Up a flash
Peel the rose
Feel the crash
Drink that
Smell this
Feel life
Can’t miss
You think
You’re a curse
You think you’re a curse
Ooh Dead girl on earth
Ooh Dead girl on earth

Hear the sound of pain
Numb your soul there’s no strain
You can’t see it but you love it
You think you’re a curse
You think you’re a curse
Ooh Dead girl on earth
Ooh Dead girl on earth
(She’s just a dead - dead girl on earth)

Something’s wrong cos’ something’s right
If I’m real tell me what died tonight
Something’s wrong cos’ something’s right
If I’m real tell me what died tonight
(Dead - dead girl on earth)
So I say

Down a dose
Up a flash
Peel the rose
Feel the crash
Take me from here
Taste my one tear
You think you’re a curse
You think you’re a curse
Ooh Dead girl on earth
(She’s just a dead - dead girl on earth)

Chorus
(Dead-dead girl on earth)
So I say

Dead girl on earth
She’s just a dead girl
Dead girl on earth
Mmnn
(She’s just a dead girl – on earth)

I’m looking though those baby eyes
Everybody smiles at me
I think I’m gonna like this place
Cos’ everybody wants to be my friend

I’m learning through those baby girl’s eyes
I’ll believe anything you say
But hands get closer - closer
And I’m so young for this kind of love

But I cannot be someone else
I answer when my heart calls my name

I’m singing though those sweet girls eyes
And everybody sings along
My song gets sadder with every line
And they all stare like something’s wrong with me

I’m hurting through those young ladies eyes
How come nobody tells the truth?
The truth is sour – bitter
And they all try to fake their own real life

But I cannot be someone else
I answer when my heart calls my name

I’m smiling through those eyes of age
I know I’ve found what I’m here for
It’s never easy being free
But my mind’s happier living alone

And I will not be someone else
Cos’ I answer when my heart calls…

My name

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